It has just been brought to my attention that Lydia has run of with Wickham and possibly eloped! What does she think she is doing?? Does she not realize the affect her actions will have on her sisters, and me!! This is an embarrassment to our family. If she has not yet married Wickham, and if she has not made any plans to marry him then this is affecting her as well. She will have a very hard time finding a man to marry her after she has pulled this stunt. This is all she will be known for, running off with a guy! Also, she will make it hard for her sisters to marry (as if it has not been hard enough!) because no one will want to marry into a family with a lady like her. Finally, since none of my daughters will marry I will have no where to live in my old life. I also believe Colonel Forster is to blame as well! If he had kept a closer eye on Lydia none of this would have happened. I absolutely cannot deal with this right now!